Aloha,
My name is Paula, aka. Soror SD, either is fine to use. I live in Honolulu, HI.
I am taking the qabbalah course. I have been studying magick for a long time but I feel I still lack a lot of the basic knowledge needed for me to practice in the areas of magick that I am interested in safely and responsibly, so I am putting some things on hold while I back up and get some more detailed/deeper training, I fully believe the Angels directed me to this, thus answering a question I asked. I am an Aries, and patience is not my best quality, lol, but I am really trying to change this, which has not been easy for me, I dont like to go slowly in anything, but I need to change my ways if I want to be successful with my magick. I have been involved with other groups in the past but I really feel I did not learn a lot of the basics as well as I should have and I am not going to get anywhere if I dont learn things the right way. I've been struggling a lot with self-hypnosis and meditation so Im hoping I can improve this so I can open up that part of me that I think is stuck right now.
I've also recently learned something that kind of bummed me out a bit, and this was that I discovered some magical things by myself, which I'm so very thankful in discovering, but then I have what I thought were friends in the magick community but they never once offered to even share their knowledge with me or even point me in right direction or at least give me some hints, I dont know, am I wrong for thinking like this? Im not sure, but if I see somebody struggling with anything in life I will help them in any way i can, buts that me. So now I'm not sure how I am going to be around these people again? Should I just let it go and accept these people for how they are? I know I can't change anybody but myself. Should I call these people on it and ask them why they never told me about certain info?
Anyway Im here now and that's all that matters.
Aloha,
Soror SD