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Hi Bess,

it's very difficult to give a comprehensive comment on what you write, since just reading this ist not really sufficient information. A few comments, however, on things that struck me while reading:

Long story short, I would recall instances, since childhood, when I experienced trauma or situations that would anger me, or even as children do, "wish" for things, I would play out an outcome in my mind over and over again. Sometimes even act it out. Then, it would happen....

That sounds like magic all right. :)

As for dreams, that is a difficult topic. If you are very much occupied with a topic chances are you'll dream about it. That means the dreams you describe may be your subconscious working things out, or a contact trying to get in touch, or.... You are the only one who can really establish that. You might want to check if anything else came out of the dreams of their messages.

After lesson one, Introduction to magic and the Meditation Temple, I realized that I had seen the image before. Many years ago when my son was but a very small child. Without getting into too many details, the dream had a beautiful Romanesque  courtyard with gardens, a well or fountain in the center, to the left were an immesurable amount of books that were in a shambles and even hanging upside down (which I thought was a shame) and a long walkway  leading to another far away building in the distance. A man had taken my son and was leading him down the path by the hand, then I chased him and grabbed my son away from him, mortified! The inner sanctuary, was revealed to me about six months ago in a dream that described the room exactly! It was in my old high school! I was enclosed in a room, on all four walls representing the quadrants, were covered with long flowing white curtains and a "dresser" (alter) at the complete end of the room.

You mention that you saw the inner temple, and that the dream showed the sanctum exactly. Here I would be very careful - that looks like you're falling prey to a confirmation bias, i.e. noticing only the items that confirm a likeness and not the discrepancies. The inner temple meditation does not really describe a romanesque courtyard with books in it. There is certainly nobody else who has a business to be in your inner temple, son or strangers. (The abduction of a child does, however, resonate with some Graeco-Roman myths.) The inner sanctum does have curtains on the walls, but none of them is white and the altar is in the center and not at one end of the room. That is not the image of a qabbalistic temple. The overall images you describe have some superficial similarities to the inner temple meditation (building plus garden), but they're certainly not identical and have important differences (wrong colour of curtains, wrong placement of altar, wrong placement of books, people in the temple).

The animal spirit episode sounds more shamanic in nature. You might want to have a look at local legends and myths. That might help you to figure more things out about it.

By the way, I have discovered that my Guardian is Leslie, I got a pain on th back of my head one evening watching television, and the name Leslie came to mind.

I would, again, be careful. Especially with things coming to mind while watching television, when you're getting a whole lot of sensory input, most of which you're not consciously aware of. You may have a guardian called Leslie, but I would not conclude that for certain from the episode you describe.

I have vaguely read about prayers or prayer rituals that I have performed in order to protect myself and my family.

That is interesting. Is there anything in particular you need protection from? Not that praying will do you any harm, but is this need for protection just because you never know, or because of a concrete reason?

I have no training on where or why to place certain things in certain places, but it tuns out, after reading even the beginner's lessons, I seem to have been spot on with everything!

As mentioned above, I'd be a bit more careful here. The problem is that if you assign meaning too quickly, you may run into a dead end and miss what things are really about. Especially dreams are, regardless of their meaning, often clothed in images that you already know, so that can be very hard to interpret. I would suggest to keep those episodes in mind, with an open mind, and see what comes up that allows you to interpret them, without forcing a meaning that may or may not be the right one.

But can someone please explain to me what has happened over the course of my life (and now) to explain who I am (spiritually)?  Please keep in mind that all of these "dreams" or "experiences" have happened before I started this course, but I am now making sense of them. But I still don't know how to "label" this in logical terms.

I'm afraid nobody except you yourself can tell you who you are. Learning about magic is probably a good way to help connect some more of the dots. As mentioned above, delving into the local legends and myths of the place you live in may also help you to understand some things. What you describe above contains imagery from sufficiently different sources (shamanic, Graeco-Roman, Christian) that putting them into a logical system right now seems forced, at least from what I read here.

It certainly seems like a lot has been happening to you. You might at the moment simply want to keep an open mind and see what you can learn, and what comes up further down the road. Some things may turn out to be connected and become part of your life, after all, and some may simply disappear. None of what you describe seems dangerous or very urgent to deal with, so you might simply want to take as much time as you need.

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Jay