Hi Babylon,
welcome to the forums of BOEL - and great that you were overcoming your blockades and are daring to approach the Qabbalah - I could imagine you will find it rewarding -- in case you are thinking about doing the online course
Anyway there are some other topics that are being explained as a preparation before the Qabbalah as such is being approached.
Looking forward to hearing / seeing from you :)
Love with Light
Nalinie