Hi
I really like to understand the nature of myself and things. So, I found here in this course some stunning facts about the worlds and great meditations to practice. But here is my purpose of studying and what I fear to face that might hold me back.
1. I would like to tell you how peaceful I felt when I did the inner temple meditation yesterday. I saw my animal guide but didn't see my higher spirit guide. This was an amazing experience. I loved the journey. I really enjoyed using my imagination in this way.
2. I want to know about the nature of things as per the teaches from old ages. I know that this is hidden wisdom that I can only find in a secret school like yours.
3. I don't want to use magic spells, zodiac, spirits to create things in my real world. This would be non-ethical in my opinion. I want to have similar chance like others and only approach my God by means of prayers, just between me and Him.
4. are these guides spirits that I make present in my temple? Do I have this place to gather spirits to protect me, or make my life better? This is against my religious views also.
5. I find it dangerous to do rituals or say spells. I don't want to be in contact with spiritual world in any way but to improve my relationship with God.
6. what is worshiped in the temple during this meditation? Is it Isis? Is it a temple similar to the temple of Jerusalem?
7. can I have the wisdom of Kabbalah, raising my soul to the higher levels of wisdom, without becoming involved in magic? Is it right to let my intention change my reality to the better? Are there any consequences for doing so?
8. Isn't it possible to become schizophrenic or so if I keep seeing and interacting with creatures from another plane? Will they stay there or will I be overwhelmed by visions that are similar to hallucinations due to staying so long in this experience?
9. devoting myself to the light of a candle isn't very comfortable to me. I feel like the ancient people of Persia who worshiped fire.
10. why are the books in the temple only about magic, as mentioned in the description? Why I can't have books from all aspects of life?
11. how do I know that I'm qualified for this course?
12. what am I doing wrong that made my higher spirit not appear to me?
Sorry for the long list of questions.